first dose

hello my lovelies!

I hope everyone has had a good holiday. I do not go black Friday shopping, i don't like the big crowds. I'm afraid I'd end up punching someone in the throat. so in an effort to avoid jail time, i do not go. i just stay home and stuff myself with leftovers.

any who, I'm experiencing my first dose of writer's block. i didn't realize how annoying that can be. i mean i have the time now, and every time i go to write thinking I'm finally ready, i just sit there starring out into a blank screen and no words flow out. I'm hoping my overly fried brain will have enough of this break and soon let me keep writing. in the mean time, i might post random little short stories. since those are the only ones to be able to come out of my head for now.

alright my lovelies, i just wanted to update you and let you know I'm still alive.

lots of love,

-B😃

Parachute

She stood at the edge of that cliff, watching the restless waves of the dark ocean water. They reminded her of her inner self. How her emotions were in complete chaos. Crashing at the edge, rising, washing away the walls that she so exhaustively worked to build. Every time they hit, she could see more and more cracks appear. She knew there was nothing she could do to repair them. Eventually, the walls would shatter and everything would come crashing down.

But she looked out into the horizon, and there, she saw it. A light, so bright, so beautiful and warm. From it, she heard a voice. It told her, “Jump.” She cringed at the thought. Surely she’d fall to her demise. She took a step back and shook her head. “Jump,” it said again. That voice was so hypnotizing. She wanted to listen to it, but she didn’t want to fall. “Jump. I will catch you.” It told her.

“I...can’t.” She covered her face with her hands. “I’m scared of falling.”

“Jump.” It repeated.

“How do I know you’re not lying to me? That you’re tricking me?” She asked worriedly.

“You don’t. You have to trust.”

She looked back down at the bottom. The walls were starting to crumble. The cliff would come down soon and take her with it. She looked back out to the light. It was so pretty. She wanted it, it made her feel good. If she could just reach out far enough. She edged closer. “But what if I fall? I have no parachute. I would die.”

“I will catch you. It’ll be worth the risk.” The light spoke.

Once more, she looked at the turbulent waters. They had almost washed away everything now, she would either fall with the cliff, or hope the light caught her and not let her perish. She took a couple steps back and looked out to the light. “Please, don’t let me fall. I’m afraid.”

Then she ran and jumped right as the voice replied, “Never, I will always catch you.”


***I know this is a random piece, but it's been sitting in my documents for a while now. felt like sharing. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
-B

hiatus over

OK everyone I'm so sorry about the absence but I've had some very personal stuff going on lately. it's a bit more settled now. so i wanted to come and let you guys know I'm still here.

anywho, I've actually worked on more chapters for HIDDEN CROWN but haven't actually had a chance to edit and post them on wattpad. i will try for at least one chapter this week, hopefully i can do two.

on a separate note. today is voting day and i haven't even had a chance to do so...I'm trying to hurry up my work here in the office so i can make it to the polls before they close. i usually hate to discuss politics but i will let it be known that, both those two people scare the ever loving crap out of me. it scares me to know that come tomorrow morning it can all go to hell. for now all i can do is hope and pray that we will make it through the next four years and the POTUS will not initiate a world wide war....again.

that is all for now lovelies! as you were. have an awesome day/night where ever you all are!

-B

New Chapter for Hidden Crown!

Hello my little lovelies!

Ok well I'd like to let you all know that I've got the third chapter for Hidden Crown up tonight! I've had a lot going on with my health lately and then my daughter's. It seems to be calming down now, so I've got more of an opportunity to edit and post. I hope you all do enjoy.

Please don't forget to follow and vote!!

https://www.wattpad.com/322323802-hidden-crown-limbo

This song though...

https://play.google.com/music/m/Tht4j3oidlbxx4zyp3rxtqqyhne?t=Childs_Play_-_Drake

Office Diet?!

Hey lovelies!

So yeah...what?! AN OFFICE-WIDE DIET?! That's right folks. One of the supervisors had come up with the idea of making a competition to see who loses the most weight between now and Christmas. Really? I'm thinking, hello! What the hell!? I LOVE Thanksgiving! How am I NOT going to stuff my face?!

The incentive here will be cold hard cash. I guess you can never go wrong with that right? I don't know. I mean it would be perfect for the holidays. I'm gonna try it just because well what do I have to loose but weight, right? Lol.

Weigh ins are this week. Which lines up perfectly because they'll be after my birthday. I plan to thoroughly pig out while I still have the chance. That way when I lose all the birthday party fatness I'll feel way good! HA!

But seriously I just don't like the way they timed this thing. I mean they should have done it in the spring for summer. No? I would have rather be a slightly healthier thick chick on the beach this summer.

Have any of you guys ever done something like this at work? I haven't, this is the first time so I admit this is a bit of a new experience. Thoughts? Concerns? Suggestions?

Tribulations

Hey lovelies!

Today's feature is: LIFE RANT.

I'm going to try and not make this a downer but I felt the need to put this out there. Today, life did one of her numbers on someone I hold very dear to my heart. She kicked his poor little heart's butt and it broke mine to see him that way.

Life tends to be a really tough road sometimes. Sure it has its good and its bad. But I honestly believe one of the most important things to do, is to remember that the bad is not always going to be there. There will be another day, another chance to be happy or enjoy the moment.

I like to believe I do my best not to lose my mind as much as possible. I do sometimes though, and it sucks. However, you have to be able to understand the bad moment you're going through and process ahead of it and look for a solution. If anything, complaining or wallowing about it is not going to change anything. I'm not saying your not allowed to. Again, I do it all the time but, take your moment to grieve but keep going through until you work onto the other side.

My best advice to anyone going through a tough spot, or simply having a bad day is: Always try to remain positive. You will be surprised, if you can do it, how much of an impact that has on you. I still remember one of the first things my current boss told me. "I like your attitude better than my old assistant, she was so negative and never had good things to say. You, you're so positive and try to look for the bright side of things. It makes dealing with issues a lot better."

It takes one person. I've always said that. IT TAKES ONE PERSON, to either make it a good or a bad time for everyone. As humans we tend to reflect whatever emotions we find around us. Let's try to reflect and put out the good ones.

All in all, stay positive out there lovelies. It is not the end of the world. If you feel stuck always reach out to someone. Even me. I'm always, always willing to listen.

Have good one everyone.

<3 Beth.